I know what this feels like. I haven't been able to "say" what happened. I wrote it out and we are working with it from there. I know people say that it is important to verbalize and tell someone your story.I haven't been able to do that...Verbalizing seems to really negatively affect me. My T has backed off on this a bit with me. Maybe its not something everyone must do to heal.

I would recommend trying to get it out anyway you can. Then work with your T from there.

Its not easy that's for sure.