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I have learned that if I don't want to talk about something in session, I better not tell it to T in an e-mail or phone message between sessions!! He really DOES let me direct the sessions, usually, but if I make a big disclosure, he will bring it up. And if I say, I really do NOT want to talk about that, he'll ask innocently, "well, can we talk about not talking about it?" . And I'll say yes, and somehow, we always do end up talking about "it" at least a little bit. And it's okay.

It's hard to believe when we don't want to talk about something, but it actually IS better to talk about this stuff. It's why we're in therapy! And as scary as it seems, we HAVE to talk to get better. The things I have talked about the most are the things I have the most peace about -and they are some SCARY things, for real. The things I've avoided talking about are the things that still haunt me.

(((((((((((((((((((((((((sitting))))))))))))))))))))))) Good luck at your session. Come back and tell us how it goes, okay??