My first trip to the T triggered me big time. I went on thurs and by Sat. morning I was a hair trigger spiraling quickly out of control. My thoughts started racing,I fell back down the rabbit hole and could see no light. I was ready to fight and cry. My numb starts out as being so overloaded that you just start shutting down to get away from all the pain, only there is no off switch and you keep shutting down until your at the bottom of the pit and don't even care. Every nerve is on high alert so hard that It exhausts you and hurts.
Giver her time, giver her room, she can't stop it,and you can't make it stop. If you love her, just don't take it personal and give it time. I've lashed and not even remembered worst thing for me is to have to try to explain myself when I don't even realize what I've done or I couldn't stop if I tried. I don't get violent I just get so dark and moody and run my mouth.
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If I ever figure out 1 thing for sure, I'm putting it on a t-shirt.
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