About writing letters etc , "not to be shared in session" - there is actually a name for this (Sunny may know it, I don't remember) and yes, it's something they watch out for.

Still I think there are ways and ways of bringing something up. "Can we talk about that phone call" is a pretty good way; whipping a letter out and starting to read it aloud is a clumsy way (IMO). in our phone call my T brought up this subject, not me, which is why I was feeling forced. She has done it once before, and she's like, "I've noticed that you are very resistant (or sensitive) to talking about ____." so then of course I have to say something.

You have no idea how much you folks have helped me on this. I was truly running from the problem, when what I have to do is face it (yikes).

Thanks above all for caring. I haven't been on PC long, but how did I ever get through some of this stuff without hearing from you who have gone through before (and done well I might add) So... I will try to give it my best shot. you're the greatest