EM, you have a lot of responsibilities. Does it sometimes wear you down? When my youngest started kindergarten 2 years ago I felt this mourning feeling. I figured out that I wasn't mourning that my youngest was in school. I was mourning what I had given up for almost 8 years and what had just returned - psychological peace! Being a stay home mom is a lot of work and you are home schooling on top of that and on top of that is the fact that your one son needs extra attention.......... You are taking care of everyone else and I think that deep inside there is a question maybe? "When will it be my turn?"