can u participate at camp in another capacity? you stated you want to impact another person's life in a positive way...that's awesome...is there some way u could still be at camp in a helping role? i think you would be a good role model from what you have written.
and your friends...lean on them for support too. that's what friends are about. i hope things work out for u, if not now, maybe next camp time, swim time.
sometimes i see the glass only half empty when i need to see it half full.  what else can you get active in to perhaps replace these two loves of your life just for the short while?
hugs to you.
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