heya

keep in mind, that your boyfriend loves you maybe more than you do yourself when you si. I dunno, but when I have si'ed in the past I've looked back on it.. it doesn't really make sense...

I think it's important to tell your boyfriend that even if it has to do with something he did, it's not his FAULT.
It's important for him to understand that.

My bf was crushed , hurt HORRIBLY when something he said caused me to go there. He... never understood the desire to hurt yourself until he was so hurt from... hearing me in the other room because of something he said...
it should never go there, just... so's have to understand, that although what they say may hurt us, it is NOT their fault that we SI.

At least from where I am, he saves me from it more than he pushes me - he's a source of love, and love helps. Maybe, explain this to him?

sending hugs