Thought I would do a little update here and let you know how I'm doing . I have tried to join a couple of on line chats that are NA orientated and have worked at this hard for the last three weeks. Managed to get 8 days in a row once. LOL. So I guess I am getting somewhere. It is hard to find support when you cant do meetings. They tell me it cant be done. Since I have gone on this quest, withdrawing a lot of the drugs that were in my system has left me a lot more disabled than i have bargained for.But I have learned a lot and have cut my usage back immensly. I slept for a week . I don't know what will happen but i am determined to beat this thing. Tell you one thing...I do belong here...lol. Found that out as soon as I tried to quit! Thank you. You are the ones that got me started