i have told my t that i don't want to lose my peeps...i'm comfortable with them...i have always been aware of them (well most of them)...since i was a small child...i was the one who told my original t about them, not the other way around...to me it is who i am. they actually help me see the world more clearly.
since i am the first did patient my t has treated i think maybe she felt that all the peeps had to be integrated...maybe thats what some of the earlier books and stuff said...but now she is fine with what i feel and does not push the issue with me. we work to fine tune things all the time, which is okay.
i enjoy (and need sometimes) to see the world thru the eyes of a 5 year old...it gives me a fresh viewpoint..and a much less jaded one. sometimes you just need that joy and honesty and happiness ....altho the opposite is also true...his sorrow and fright can be just as horrific as his highs.
i guess my feeling is that if you don't want to integrate then the decision should be up to you, not your t. did is a marvelous form of adaptation...so creative and ingenious...for me it works....and if it does for you then why lose it?
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