I am such a loser. I just tried to call the crisis hotline, three times. I want help so bad, but once they answer, I feel like I'm not even worth their time and hung up. What is wrong with me? Between the severe depression and the never-ending money problems, I feel like I'm falling. Moving away from everything, my old town, all my old trouble spots, the part of my past that I just want to forget ever existed, didn't solve anything. I thought I could start over, be happy again, but it's not working. All I do is cry, and I'm so tired of it. I'm so upset right now, I can barely articulate my thoughts. I need to find help fast.

Thanks for listening, I just had to say this to someone.