Hi MissC,

Sometimes the pain inside feels bottomless and there does not seem to be any way to ever stop it -ever heal it - talking is good - but - I dont know... I think maybe we eventually have to learn to soothe the pain ourselves with our T's help and then it finally goes away - I hope so -

It sounds to me like there is progress - you can now talk about your needs - that must have been hard in the beginning and now you can do that - that is HUGE progress - I dont think you're defective - I think youre hurt and need that to stop and are struggling with it - I wish I could help but I only have words and emoticons of course! no way to fix things.....

When I felt stuck recently I asked here and they said (very wonderful people at PC) talk it through with your T - and for me it worked - so I am passing on their good advice and hope it works for you -

I hope your pain eases and that you find a way to at least heal a tiny corner of the pain with all the kind thoughts and well wishes that are sent to your from the folks here at PC -

Please try to treat yourself as you would a friend - and be kind to yourself P7