Thanks Spotted,
Yes it's time for a new direction but I am stuck on the ground. T and I did discuss this and hence his comment about therapy propelling you forward. We have always talked about my life now and my childhood trauma in that context. That's where it gets complicated because my trauma is complex and it seems to be always rearing its ugly head.
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Now, maybe the focus needs to be on how you can be more gentle to yourself.
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Yes, we are already there. We talk about how the adult me can parent the child me in a way that is not toxic like my parents were.
I think I do want and need a change but feel hampered in my ability to effect that change. Last time I did it by cutting of the child me and leaving her behind (unintegrated so to speak). Now, I feel like she's so needy and I have a hard time taking charge with her in tow. Sigh. That sounds negative but I have to nurture her somehow.
I'mapatient--I went to catholic school-thanks for the laugh!