It went badly. I told him about a swan that got caught in an electric fence, that Chris and other members of his ambulance crew (they rescue anything!), had needed to go and rescue. I said that I felt sad because the swan had broken a leg and a wing, so was probably going to be put down. He completely invalidated my feelings, by saying "well, how important is this swan in your life?! What can you do, get all the swans in the country that could possibly harm themselves and lock them up in cages, where they'll be really unhappy?!" I was like.. No.. I just said it was a bit sad, that's all.. So, I got pretty p*ssed of with him to be honest.

I told him about the panic attack and that Chris had come to help me, he didn't seem too bothered by it. He was really quite nasty in the meeting, he tried to put me on the spot. He said "Let me see your arms." I said no and he said why, so I told him that no-one sees my arms if they ask to. He went silent, trying to make me crack. I said to him "I'm not going to break, Alec." He just laughed at me and then later on tried saying that he DID put me on the spot. I got annoyed and said "Well, actually, you TRIED to put me on the spot, but guess what? I didn't let you!" and then walked away feeling pretty damn chuffed with myself.

So.. Yeah, the meeting with Alec was rubbish, but there's no surprise there.