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I am not sure wether to ask this or not... but do you feel unloved by others? Sometimes we try and replace what we don't have in our lives with 'wishes' fantasies if you like. It's common for people to want what's in a film, after all they nearly all end so perfectly.

Wish I could help more
Take care,
Molly