Thanks.

*sigh* I'm uhhh. Finding it tough to say the least.. Connor thinks I'm "off" with him. Just because I'm trying not to talk to him much so he can just get on with college and get on with getting the help and such.. I'm trying to help him.. Again.. By not talking to him much.. But he just doesn't seem to get that. So I'm kinda all over the place at the moment.

I've still got the plans in my head and was so, so close to SI'ing again.. I thought 'well Chris isn't seeing me tonight, so I wouldn't have to worry about hiding it, or him seeing it if I take my jumper off or something...' So, with that thought in mind, I'm finding it tough, really tough.

I haven't been to my hypnotherapy, I really don't feel up to it.. I feel completely drained of any energy I did have..

I can't do this