Where did I go wrong? Is it always me that's wrong? Is it my fault? Do I always have to pretend taht I'm ok, to make everyone else happy? Do I always have to give in? Will I always feel this weak?

I hate this. I really do.. And all I can think about is OD'ing, SI'ing, Starving, SI'ing, OD'ing.. It's all going through my head and all I can see, feel, hear is a blur and I keep just drifting out of the place I'm in and I'm scared something's gonna happen..

What do I do? I can't do this anymore

And no-one seems to care anymore.. No-one seems bothered about where I am, what I do, where I go.. Whether I'm even here or not. *sob* I feel like veerything I do is wrong and I just want to give up

Please help me... Somebody tell me it's ok and mean it..?

Please?

I'm so close.. I feel like it's all everyone wants.. me to just fall off the face of the Earth and die..