hi and welcome to pc, allalone. i'm so glad you found us!!! thank you for sharing about what's going on with you and your life. i've had some occurences similar to yours at one point in my life. i was devasted. i had no money and no support system but good friends. it took me about 6 months to get on my feet again, slowly. i will pray for you, just me. i did a lot of that when i was betrayed and had no means of support. my prayers were answered beyond any good thing i could imagine. so i do believe there's power in prayer.
you've already done so many good things to prepare you for life. right now i feel you must see things and are very overwhelmed. i was too. but just take it "a day at a time" and build on those successful blocks of time. please continue to post and let us know how things are going.
i hope your mom can get help too. right now she is sick. sick with an addiction and needs to seek help for herself. she will be the one who decides that.
in the meantime you focus on your self and know that i care.