S**t. S**t, S**t, S**T.

I'm close.. Too close and I just.. I need to die.. I'm sorry. I'm sorry for letting you all down, again.. I *sob* I just can't do this. I honestly am so close and I have a backup plan, a surefire way to kill me, but I don't want to say because everyone's watching me and they'll tell someone who's of authority and they'll stop me and they'll get mad at me and they'll section me and they'll scream and shout at me and they'll.. They'll.. Oh. I'LL Kill Me..