TPND - somtimes when we make progress theres a backlash - I have felt it - somthing good happens and you feel the reverse - you have done somthing good - you have tried to look after your needs and also to help conner - its hard and its painful to change - people somtimes dont like it - they want us the way we were - but we have to change to grow and get better.
Can you call Chris and talk about it?
You DO deserve Help - You DO deserve to be loved - you Do deserve to be looked after and to look after yourself - please dont hurt yourself - things CAN GET BETTER even if they dont seem so now - things happen to us whether we deserve it or not - you are NOT a lost cause or hopeless - even in the darkest day there is hope - please be safe P7
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Its not how many times you fall down that counts 
its how many times you get back up! 
(Thanks to fenrir for my Picture 
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When you have come to the edge of all light that you know and are about to drop off into the darkness of the unknown,
Faith is knowing One of two things will happen: There will be something solid to stand on or you will be taught to fly.
by Patrick Overton, author and poet