Hi to all of you who answered my original post. Thanks to you all and especially Christina 86 and Earthmama for the healing vibes i felt during the last little while.
I saw my T. and explained the feeling of being torn between Psychotherapy and Psychiatry. He said that he could see that. He asked me if I felt the competitiveness between my mom and dad. I said no and that I competed with my siblings. (shrug) I explained that I would like to consolidate my relationship with my Psychiatrist at this time, before reconsidering therapy. He said he didn't remember saying some of things that I called him out on. Anyways he said that he is happy that I came to talk about why I was terminating, because he sometimes gets a phonecall to cancel all future appointments booked, and that all! He said that I was welcome to come back anytime in the future. He also said that he supports meds. (well what do you know!) Im going to see my pdoc next week. Hope you are all feeling in good spirits. dawnhopeful