the onion has a center - beneath the pain and the person you built to keep you safe is the kind caring person we all know - what you used to protect you becomes null and void as you get through whats happened in your life in therapy.
I dont like the "after" the incident me - I dont want to be her - sometimes I feel like there is no real me there - but every now and then somthing happens to remind me that somthing of me still remains hidden waiting for when its safe - I think that is similar for you - when you feel safe the real you can come out to play and we will be here for you with the ball or game ready to play too.
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Its not how many times you fall down that counts 
its how many times you get back up! 
(Thanks to fenrir for my Picture 
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When you have come to the edge of all light that you know and are about to drop off into the darkness of the unknown,
Faith is knowing One of two things will happen: There will be something solid to stand on or you will be taught to fly.
by Patrick Overton, author and poet