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dear possum,
yea!!! i am very happy for you all. that tension thing is a killer, metaphorically speaking.
you are getting the benefit of my learning the hard way by making the exact same mistake. many people had to tell me to "lighten up".
i felt sad about being so pushy/angry with my insiders. my T helped me realize that every part i have has done their job believing they were helping me, even parts who did things that are not what i want "up front". other parts did things we don't like for reasons they thought would benefit us (sometimes with unfortunate results). Can you say complicated? =)
I'm glad that encourages you, it makes me feel good that something good is coming from my experiences. It is totally cool if you can see and "get" something faster than I did. that would be totally awesome!
I am just now beginning to acknowledge my anger. Those who abused me demanded I not have my own anger, so i suppressed it and denied it. So, I probably don't know why you are angry, but I'm really sure you have a good reason for anger, just not at yourself - at those who hurt you bad enough for you to need to split it of. I like it when I get an awareness that helps me and i really like it when I get to share something and someone else gets something they need.
This is a journey toward healing that you are on. The destination is NOT the whole point - which bummed me out since I spent a number of years agitating myself and all around me trying to get there so I could finally relax and not feel terrible.
The journey can be hard and discouraging and amazing and interesting. we DID folk are seldom dull. It took years for us to learn to do the things we did to survive. Therefore, it really is ok to take the needed time to heal well so we can discovered the healed life however it is shaped.
I feel a little philosophical about what I wrote, but it really is from my heart and my experiences. The more we all get to know, the better off we all will be. Secrets made us sick and the light of insight and recovery will do a lot to make us well. See you soon.
Dear Ice and Denise thank you for your kind words. I'm looking forward to knowing all of you better. hugs for any who want them,
leslie and her pixies
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