DEL12:

This quote from your very own post makes so much sense to me:

"I guess what is most important is what is best for me"

Just know that, people here at PC, including me, are 'for what is best' for you, too. You get to have that say! Your life is valuable!

When I read your post, I am reminded about how much has to be overcome. You are doing so well. It's your life!

Thanks for sharing.

Bye
Ice