(gonna be mean for a minute so avert your eyes if you need gentle right now.)

You said you don't know if you are going to make it--is your car broke, bike not working, tennis shoes worn out? Expecting a blizzard? Giant pre-historic t-rex making it's way to your house? Ok, I'm done being mean.

See what I'm getting at? You CAN make it tomorrow, you just may not feel you WANT to. I go back to your interview...The one where you hyperventilated and cried all the way there. You opened that door. You did it. Going to school is a great way to make connections, the more connections you have the less alone you will be, the less alone you are the better you will start to feel. The more connections you have, also, the better opportunities you will have for networking on information about making a plan to get out of your house. Still following me? It was very hard for me to be mean because I know you are in a tender place right now. I just wanted to show you that that what is holding you back is your depression/anxiety/sadness/anger. If you can take that first step--open that door--things have the possibility of changing.