I have read your replies and thank you.. Yes I know I would benifit from therapy. That is part of it all I am admitting that for once.But like I said I have some obsticles in the way. With all the wonderful issues also broght the loss of my health insurance as well as I am currently fighting the workers comp because I spoke to an attorney and they have stopped my checks. This is all adding to the stress. Pegasus no she got away and the police seemed more like they couldnt be bothered. I have been posting and going into chat rooms and that does help not feel so alone. It is the confusion and the stress thats getting to me. Honestly I feel like a timebomb ready to explode. Thats why I posted to see if it helps relieve some of the stress.

Okay so editing this because I did just get some good news. Talked to my laywer who I have been badgering every day! They got in touch with our WC carrier and they are sending out my checks. At least I feel like a can breath a little easier now!