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Originally Posted by Tumnus
Been drinking, taking waaay beyond the right amount of certain medsI wanted to get together with a friend tonight but couldn't and now I'm way more sad about it than I should be--cried when it's not even my normal depression mode. ....and I'm home alone wishing I could disappear. Stupid, huh?
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i'm sorry that you are feeling so badly.  and i certainly don't want you to "disappear" but the depression does make us feel that way.
"taking waaay beyond the right amount of meds and drinking" to quote you may have brought on this feeling of depression you are having, imho. at the least it could be contributing to the depression. you may already be aware of that phenomenom.
do you know why you are over-medicating and drinking?
no, you are not stupid. but depression makes us feel that we are worthless sometimes. can you call your T or pdoc? it may help to let him/her be aware of what's going on with you. there may be solutions to help you.
hope you feel better real soon. 
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