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Originally Posted by madisgram
i'm sorry that you are feeling so badly.  and i certainly don't want you to "disappear" but the depression does make us feel that way.
"taking waaay beyond the right amount of meds and drinking" to quote you may have brought on this feeling of depression you are having, imho. at the least it could be contributing to the depression. you may already be aware of that phenomenom.
do you know why you are over-medicating and drinking?
no, you are not stupid. but depression makes us feel that we are worthless sometimes. can you call your T or pdoc? it may help to let him/her be aware of what's going on with you. there may be solutions to help you.
hope you feel better real soon.  |
I do know that drinking and overmedicating make things worse. I'm taking some good steps today to be healthy (walking witha friend for instance). I'm not sure why I've gone this route. It's not really like me. I think I'm looking for something to change the way I feel even if it's for the worse because I'm sick of having been treated intensively over the last year since my suicide attempt with very little improvement or change. Some days I just get sick of fighting. More days than not lately. At the same time, I don't want to fully give up either. It's a weird place to be. My T and pdoc are kinda useless over the phone. That's the one thing I don't like about them. I wish I had someone qualifiied who I could call when I get down and kinda out of control but I don't have anyone.