dear one of many,
some of the bad people who hurt us did a thing called programming. it was training us a certain way of behaving so the bad people could hide what they were doing to us from police and people around us.
your difficulty in talking may have been "done" to keep you from telling one those who were bad to you. if you can do so, ask inside of you if someone Knows Why You Cant Talk? maybe you could write something down and tell your T about it, if you have one.
if nothing else you could begin to tell the others in you, "it is safe to talk now, we are grown up and those bad things are in our past, so please lets talk".
over a period of time, I have had bad programming fall apart or be de-programmed so i got free from some bad things in my past. i hope you can too, soon.
hugs if you want them,
leslie and her pixies