you know... its really frustrating when you wake up and aren't yourself, and the rest of the day you go back and forth and back and forth so much that memory hazes.
And, that I have gotten to the point today that i felt like I wasn't the owner of myself... that some other part of me was more there than I was.

Frustrating that when I WAS there, I sat there shaking, afraid that she'd be there again, that she would be in an unstable spot and hurt us, not wanting to be not there.

Frustrated that they seem to be getting more and more ... I don't know.... real. And part of me wants to wish them all away. Coping mechanism... yes... better than others i've used.. yes.... but also ... having hard time dealing


Sick + this = BLEH.
and at the very least could they at least not be mad at me for not "caring about them" or being mad at them?
*as one of them starts to whiningly complain*

sorry for the rant. *wipes forhead*