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Are you asking if I am doing this against medical advice? Yes, I am doing this against medical advice.
My pdoc doesn’t even know I’ve stopped. I mean, he knows I’ve been thinking about it and advised against it, but he doesn’t know that I’ve done it.
I skipped my last appointment, but did reschedule for a month from now.
I have been trying to figure out why I self sabotage for 20 years and I still don’t know.
No, I cannot stop and take a more gentle approach. I wish I could. Actually, I wish I could just take my meds, full on. I miss them.
I understand why you would say I don’t deserve to be hurt. But, you don’t know me. No one does. I do deserve to be hurt.
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