i could really relate to how you are feeling right now. i got the truck load of faulty genes from my parents...HBP, BPD, heart problems, diabeties, high this, low that, ad nauseum. my siblings only got HBP!!
my T said my reaction was like i was having a childlike tantrum about all the pills and dx's. he let me rant and then said i had a choice-take the meds to regain some order of healthiness or give up and die early and depressed in the process.
ok, so i chose the former. even tho sometimes these medical dx's frighten me a bit, the alternative is not so appealing just yet. i have learned to appreciate the life i have even with these challenges. since getting help for the depression, et al. my life has never been better and thank goodness for the pills that thwart off the the dx's. i've outlived all the people in my father's family (butt load of bad genes) by just accepting my situation and getting on with living.
it's ok to have the tantrum...i cried sometimes too and i was mad. why me? than i said, why not me? i hope today is a better one for you. and just hope what i've posted will help you even if it's in a small way.