lol - thank you rap - your post really made me smile.

i am feeling very very calm right now. i probably dont need the crazy meds tonight, but i will take them anyway tonight so i know i can stay asleep. i am meant to call my grandparents tomorrow morning and will probably spend the day at their house, so that should be nice (heh - it's kind of boring, actually, but i love them lots and i know it makes them so happy when i go over there so i should).

i am having bad thoughts about some of the stuff that used to happen to me as a kid. i am worried about whether to tell pdoc or not. he asked if --- made me touch him (to which i answered no) but he didn't ask if --- used to touch me, so maybe it isn't important.

i feel stupid for being worried about it though. it really was nothing.

only 2.5days to get through before i see pdoc again. im feeling numb but ok.