It happens so slowly that I don't realize it. I have stopped feeling for the most part.... again. Sure, there are those that I care about..... but everything is numb again. I cannot motivate myself to do any of the things I need to do. I have listened to a sad song just to feel something again, but it barely helps.

Why does this happen? Why can't I break these cycles?

I don't really expect answers to these questions. Sorry.