Luce is what you are saying that the "survival script" makes everything smoother for you in the outside world but bad for you inside because it isn't good for you and when you try to do what is good for you inside then it stirs the pot in the outside world and makes things harder? So it is inside vs. outside going on?

Yeah, this happens even without DID. When you make the transition from doing things that are bad for you to doing things that are truly good for you it rocks the boat in the outside world. But as you stick with it and problem solve the effects on the outside, the outside world comes to realize that a new sheriff is in town and they have to get used to it. I hope I understood what you were saying? Plus I guess you have to fight the old programming and fears..........