Meds are difficult. Sometimes you have to try many different kinds to find the kind that work. Sometimes you have to learn to live with the things you hear, turn them in to backround noise.

I was like you. I had depression first. But I've had an underline of feeling that something's been wrong with me since I was little. I always KNEW there was something was wrong. Now I'm starting to present symptoms that are too strong to be symptoms of depression, and I'm delusional and paranoid. They aren't saying I'm schizophrenic yet, of course, 'cause I'm not there yet. But I know that's what's wrong. They just don't believe me.

But it doesn't matter. Just a few more months and they'll see.