Thought I'd post some good news on here. I hope it might give some of you a little hope that there really is a light at the end of the tunnel.

I feel GOOD. Not great or spectacular, not like I'm going to do a crazy dance around the room, but I FEEL GOOD. I feel better than I've felt in a very, very long time. I know the depression is still there, sort of hanging around at the back of my mind, but for the first time in ages, I can keep it there, in the back where it's not overwhelming the rest of my thoughts. Every time I start feeling the depression creeping up on me, I've managed to take a deep breath and just shift the direction of my thoughts. I'm not doing much, just hanging around at home, doing some writing and the chores I've been unable to do for a while, but today I actually feel ALIVE, and that's something, isn't it? I don't know why I feel like this -- maybe it's the meds finally kicking in! -- but I am going to take advantage of it while I can, because this good feeling makes me feel almost normal again, and I'm going to need it if/when I feel low again to help me get through the next rough patch.

Anyways, I just wanted to post this because it's a huge deal for me, and it's given me back a lot of the hope I lost to the depression when it was at its worst. I'm not sure how long this is going to last, but I'm taking advantage of it while I can! I hope that in reading this some of you can also take away some hope that even in your darkest days there's a light up ahead.