WHOA !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Lets change that "stinkin thinkin" !!!!!!! How about........"I made it through the night without panic. I used many coping skills, and towards the end of the evening, I started feeling a bit bad.......BUT I LIVED TO TELL ABOUT IT !"

What do u mean you set up a cycle? Seems to me that going out THREE nights in a row was a GREAT cycle !!!!! No one said that getting better was easy, and just look how much you changed since the first night!! Quit beating yourself up, focus on every second, minute, hour that were GOOOOOOOOOOOD, and forget those few minutes that were not so good ! I think you did absolutely fantastic !! Pat yourself on the back for me please !!!!!! KEEP ON KEEPIN ON !!!!!