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few hours later i will go to meet my pdoc but iam to scared coz my last meeting with her she said i am doing a good job but after meet her alot of things triggered me and i feel extremely sad ( i meet her 2 times a weeks )...today after almost cut my wrist i still dont know what to do and still feel more sad and guilty about everything i 've done....i try to kills my self for few reasons and one of the reasons is .its kind a revenge to my parents coz if i killed my self i will put ashamed to their face ..i know they didint care if iam dead but they will feel embarrased ...i shouldnt feel this way about them...whatever they did to me inside of my heart i still have love for them and in stupid way i still hoping that they showing me they love me too...see how eveil iam...i so sick of me ...and besides all my problem with my parents i think iam gonna losing something that really important in my life so..what this life living for anymore??? i dont have any reason....
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As long as people aren't asking me if i'm all right, i am alright.
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