i dont know what happened but i didnt cut or anything last night, watched a movie with my boyfriend, did some tarot readings for myself, and then fell asleep listening to music... all in all it was a fine night... must have been around 2 or 3 am when i fell asleep. then i remeber at 5:29 i woke up because my arm was all wet, i remember because i touched my arm then grabbed my cell to see why my arm was all wet, i couldnt figure it out... blood was all over the bed, my arm was bleeding like crazy and i was getting light headed, lucky me my boyfriend was still awake and he heard me stifle my scream so he came in to see what was going on and saw the blood...
the rest is really a haze to me, i remember him wrappin his arm around me and taking my scarf to wrap around my arm to slow the bleeding... i know i stumbled up the stairs and out to the car... he drove me to the hospital where i got stiched up...
i was all weak and the doctors asked that i get a psych evaluation so i had to talk to a mental health specialist who said i wasnt suicidal so i could go home, that was good, but now im at home and i cant figure out when i cut myself... im beginning to wonder if my personalities are taking over when im asleep... i dont know what to do... not anymore... im scared about what i might do to myself...