Hey - lets talk !! How about that "stinkin thinkin" thing, you know like - tonights party you say you know it could be fun etc etc........how about "A party !! This is going to be fun.........and in the safety of my own home"!!!

You seem to be trying so hard Ryan, and just in the time I have been coming to this site, I have seen changes in your posts. Every person on this earth has good and bad days, whether they are diagnosed with a mental illness or not. For those of us with a Dx, it just makes us work harder in almost every aspect of our lives. Fair? Heck no.......but we have to play the hand we are dealt. I used to just "fold my cards" without even looking at the hand I was dealt cause I knew it was BAD.......but that just let the mental illness WIN - without me even peeping out to see what I COULD do .........when I changed things, started learning how to play the hand I was dealt, and beat that demon dealer, in baby steps, I started seeing that I COULD enjoy life, I COULD learn new skills to help me. Did I get really bad "hands" dealt even after I started recovery? HECK YEAH. Do I still get bad hands after 15 years in recovery - HECK YEAH. However, I know what to do with those hands now, and I deal with them - thru ALL the techniques I learned and practiced and practiced and practiced ! I still practice them daily. I probably always will. Am I at the top of that mountain you spoke of? Nope, but now when I take a little tumble, I get right up and start up again, brushing off my backside, and never giving it a thought ! One thing I am 100% sure of, I will NEVER be at the bottom of that mountain again - knowledge gives me power, coping skills give me power.....and they do with you too. You just gotta get rid of that 'stinkin thinkin"

I have no idea where u live - but I am in VA - can I make it to the party on time ?

Have a blast ! And when u post about it - keep the "stinkin thinkin" out of the post ! KEEP ON KEEPIN ON !!!!