I am feeling so depressed and hopeless for the past 2 weeks. College stresses me out. I worry about my future because I can handle the course load at college. I hate college, I dislike most of the ppl in my program, I don't feel supported by the program in regards to my medical condition, and I am overwhelmed by an assignment that I don't understand and requires a mini class presentation.

This morning I took a sleeping pill to numb me up. It worked. Why can't I be numb all the time?