Funny thing is, the girl I met in my 1st experience that I felt like it was seeing a friend that I hadn't seen in a long time, we are no longer friends. BP stole her from me. My behaviour was so erratic, I didn't know I was BP at the time, wasn't on any mood stabilizers. She couldn't handle a SA I had, can't say as I blame her. It is a scary thing for others to deal with and understand.