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Old Feb 06, 2009, 09:36 PM
anxietygirl anxietygirl is offline
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I also spent 4 nights awake praying and reading the bible. The lexapro has helped some but I still get afraid and I feel like I cant sleep unless I take the klonopin bc it relaxes my mind. My husband thinks I have lost it. I cant talk to anyone about it because they would think I was crazy. I have been terrified that maybe I am having a break in reality and that I have schizophrenia. I want to see a therapist but I am afraid they would put me away if I told them my fear. I dont know what to do. I can go days without it bothering me and then I will be afraid again. I have caught myself jerking in my sleep so I think the bed shaking might be me jerking my legs or arms. But the thoughts run wild and I am obssessed with the thought of a demon coming to get me. My mom was killed in a car accident two years ago and I had the same fear one night after she died but it didn't linger. I wonder if I am dealing with some repressed grief bc I really didn't get the chance to grieve.