Rain, I understand honey how hard it is I was in a situation where my dad had just died and mum was no good for man or beast she was just so numb from his death, so I had it all for myself, I was married but he was useless as well.

No one here is judgeing you so vent away, I think the letting him go to aunts or your mum will do you both the world of good, heck its just a sleep over lol. Just dont spend the time feeling guilty about it relax into it and rest !

We have all been to the end of the road with kids at one time or another and if anyone says they havent then I would call them a liar, I have had six and they was all different but even my daughter (the only girl) who was a real good baby, I had had enough and wanted 'time out' which I didnt get I have no idea how I coped somtimes but the good thing is you do and the bad times pass and they do start to blend in with you rather than the other way around.

Before you know it he will be at school and you wont know what to do with your time ! It goes so so fast.

Just a thought can you sleep or rest with him at 11 when he lays down ?