I'm about to start flouroxetine (sp?), but for a week before and now since I've seen the doctor, I don't feel depressed. I don't feel happy, but I don't feel depressed.

I'm starting them on tuesday, but I don't know if I need them now. I also don't know if it's because I've recently actually started to have a love life again and that's making me happy. I know that I've gone from severe to mild/moderate depression, so maybe it's jsut because I'm used to being severe? If that makes any sense XD.

The thing is, I've also had periods where I've been happy or, as he said "An absense of depression" where I was so bloody energetic, confident, motivated and happy! at least sompared to my usual, and he said that because I know what it's like to not be depressed, I have the flouroxetine to get me like that, mostly for the motivation part (And, consequently, the happy and confidence part ).

I am going to take them anyway, because I knwo that last year I was better in Winter, and I'm afraid I'll start to sink again as winter leaves.

I just...I dunno XD