(((((((kathyanita))))))))safe hugs
i'm sorry that it's so confusing to live.
we have parts that don't know that there are any others also. i tell T that only some of us have DID. The kid parts that don't know there is anyone else are so hard to be because they don't think anyone can take care of them if their f. (husband to me) is being mean or gone .They think that they are all alone in the world and we can't talk to them and tell them anything. They cry endlessly sometimes. We have an idealized mother part .It's so confusing being her.
We're not there when the work part is out and all the time at work is lost which is so nerve wracking but also such a needed break for us. Still we have such a struggle getting to work on time, parts dread it but going through that door feels so good. we have to get there to know. i understand the terrible feeling of 'no one to be' when there's not a place for parts.

(((((kathyanita))))) i'm sorry that it's so hard for you too.