((earthmama))

I woke up crying this morning also! I think that we work through stuff in our dreams and when we cry we are incorporating the feelings as well as the experience. These are feelings we dissociated originally. I totally understand the frustration of not being able to share with T -- that brings up a lonely feeling that we had to deal with in childhood. It's so frustrating to think: "OMG, but if I don't tell him NOW, he won't know what I am going through!" But then I realized that it's okay not to tell him every single thing -- that journaling and maybe sharing a bit from that is okay; and that it doesn't mean he isn't with me if I can't tell him everything every minute.

EM, we are here with you and T is with you in your heart.

As far as the depression--well, I am an experienced depressed person. Try to honor the experience as something your inner child had to deal with alone and now you have T and your adult self, H and us to share it with. What would the adult earthmama do if one of her kids came to her crying and couldn't cheer up?

These are all real experiences and you are working so hard.

Take gentle care.