Thanks Madisgram... sometimes it just helps to get it all out. I made it to work okay yesterday (Friday) but sometimes it is just so hard. I'm on 150g Lamictal, 100g Zoloft, and a whole bunch of other stuff for unrelated things (heartburn, seasonal allergies, etc, etc, etc...). I see my T every other week, and my pdoc i've been seeing for 5 years. So I am getting help. It just seems that whether I can get to sleep right away, or I'm up all night (I have Sonata for that, which I only take sometimes), it is SOOOO hard to get out of bed in the morning. Even if I'm not feeling down. I'll go a week getting up early and taking my time in the morning, and I love that. But after about a week I just can't do it anymore, no matter how much I want to. It's pretty random, and I'm still trying to figure out the triggers and cycles... it's just a long, long road, and hopefully I can keep my life on track while i'm figuring it all out.