lbien,

Melpomene said what I think. Unintentional conception has given us many wonderful people. Like you! Those little swimmers are going to do what sperm are going to do! You are a part of the biologically superior group! You made it. There's no mistake there. Don't take on your mother's stuff honey, that's hers, not yours. Don't confuse the two.

Jme--I know that I was a planned child for my father but not exactly what my mother had in mind at the time. I felt both ends of that. The fact that he was hoping for a boy and didn't get one was another wrench in the works, too.

I know they both loved me. But I don't think they knew what to do with me! Neither one of them had very good parenting skills which is what I think were the bigger issues. I was sensitive, artistic and a tomboy trying to be non-sensitive, dummied down and girlish. I don't know who had the harder time accepting me for me. My parents or me.

You, my dear, are no mistake! You are an individual, you are you. You are smart, sensitive and have the ability to put your feelings in someone else's shoes. Very few can. Your only problem is that you have more growing to do. Live and learn, live and grow. Be proud. Show who you are. Love your world and those special people in it -- including your mom. You are indeed the best "mistake" she ever made, just ask her!

notz - sending love hugs to you.