haven't i fought long enough yet, haven't i earned a little relief, a little success, a little progress? but there isn't any for me, it's hopeless... this is how it is. i want a break, but i don't want to be behind again... and if i can't remain enrolled in college then i can't see my t there... i want to take a ton of pills and let what happens happen... i want to fade away... but i bet i'd be found. it's all so useless.